I don't think of "Good Intentions" as part of "Alibi," but it's really interesting to look at it that way, especially with "Assuming," so, I writes it for you!
...obviously I'm doing this in one sitting, so I hope it's up to par ^__^
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Jun is a fast learner, and there's a lot to learn in Johnny's if you are a boy who likes Johnnys.
He tries to keep it to tour staff, at first, because that seems simpler, but, after summer break ends, pretty much everyone working the concert is at least thirty.
Doing anything with Juniors seems creepy now that everyone's calling him "senpai," but Jun's favorite backdancer is older than him, so he can't imagine that anyone who stumbles upon them behind the costume racks would really find cute Matsujun in the wrong.
("You start to think of yourself as two people," Tackey tells him.
Jun wonders if he means the celebrity or the secrecy or both. He wonders if there's room for anything else in-between.)
It's easy to find someone, Jun learns, and having someone makes it easier to ignore wanting someone else (because he cannot, cannot, cannot go there, not even in his dreams, because it is not safe).
Jun knows when Sho kisses him after their concert that it's partly because he pities Jun and mostly because he feeds off Jun's admiration.
"Don't indulge me," Jun begs, pushing Sho as far away as he can in the space of the closet.
"It's okay," Sho says, chuckling a little. "We're friends."
"I like someone else," Jun says, and it's mostly true.
Sho is silent, disappointed, and Jun hates him for it, because the reasons are wrong. He opens the door and stumbles into the changing room, freezing when Ohno comes in at the same moment.
"I can't find my pants," Ohno says, forlorn.
Jun shoves past him and into the hallway, unwilling to be anything to anyone tonight.
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Date: 2008-10-17 04:59 am (UTC)...obviously I'm doing this in one sitting, so I hope it's up to par ^__^
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Jun is a fast learner, and there's a lot to learn in Johnny's if you are a boy who likes Johnnys.
He tries to keep it to tour staff, at first, because that seems simpler, but, after summer break ends, pretty much everyone working the concert is at least thirty.
Doing anything with Juniors seems creepy now that everyone's calling him "senpai," but Jun's favorite backdancer is older than him, so he can't imagine that anyone who stumbles upon them behind the costume racks would really find cute Matsujun in the wrong.
("You start to think of yourself as two people," Tackey tells him.
Jun wonders if he means the celebrity or the secrecy or both. He wonders if there's room for anything else in-between.)
It's easy to find someone, Jun learns, and having someone makes it easier to ignore wanting someone else (because he cannot, cannot, cannot go there, not even in his dreams, because it is not safe).
Jun knows when Sho kisses him after their concert that it's partly because he pities Jun and mostly because he feeds off Jun's admiration.
"Don't indulge me," Jun begs, pushing Sho as far away as he can in the space of the closet.
"It's okay," Sho says, chuckling a little. "We're friends."
"I like someone else," Jun says, and it's mostly true.
Sho is silent, disappointed, and Jun hates him for it, because the reasons are wrong. He opens the door and stumbles into the changing room, freezing when Ohno comes in at the same moment.
"I can't find my pants," Ohno says, forlorn.
Jun shoves past him and into the hallway, unwilling to be anything to anyone tonight.